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June 12th, 2007

08:06 pm - soul mate???? Do you believe in soul mates? Me? well, I dont know.... I recently met this person, who seemsto be the embodiment of what I look for in a special someone who could make me really happy. She's very smart. Likes books, and happens to like the same stuff as I do. We even have the same fave poem of Pablo Neruda's. Deymn..... I mean... we aren't using the same service provider for our mobile fones, but hell, kung mag usap kame... daig pa ang parehong nka sun.... hehehehehehehehhehehehehe.... She makes me *kilig* and laugh out loud whenever we talk... she seems too good to be true. I hope she meant it when she said that she doesn't go for looks.... I mean I'm confident that I can hold my on with the intelligence dept. but I hope she's really not someone who likes beauty and brains. The brains i have, but looks.... uhhhhhhh..... never mind. It would take someone really perverted to find me attractive. D maalis smile ko, whenever I think about the last time we talked. I still feel giddy when I think of your voice. hai.... *gets all mooney eyed and all* If you happen to drop by this page and read this.... The offer still stands... even if you find yourself not interested romantically. I'd understand... Current Mood: giddy

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07:54 pm - Fornicate Under Consent of the King (F.U.C.K)!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck! fuck! and a million more FUCKs!!!!! I'm so like, wanting to update my blog in friendster.... and guess what?????? they have fuckin encountered a fucking problem!!!!!! I mean..... HUWAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTT?????????? Are they fuckin real???? i mean AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Current Mood: angry

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February 3rd, 2007

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July 13th, 2005

08:41 pm All alone on a Sunday morning Outside I see the rain is falling, falling Inside I'm slowly dying But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying And you... Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow Set this place on fire 'Cause I'm tired of your lie All I needed was a simple "Hello" But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry I gave you my love in vain My body never knew such pleasure My heart never knew such pain (And you) You leave me so confused Now I'm all cried out, over you [112] ooh Cryin' over you, yeah Never wanted to see things your way Had to go astray For why was I such a fool (Why was I such a fool?) Now I see that the grass is greener Is it too late for me to find my way home How could I be so wrong? [Allure] Leaving me all alone Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno Romance of these flames Why should I take the blame? You were the one who left me neglected (So sorry baby) Apology not accepted At me to the broken hearts you've collected I gave you all of me (Gave you all of me) How was I to know You would weaken so easily I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do) Now I'm all cried out (All cried out) Over you I gave you my love in vain My body never knew such pleasure My heart never knew such pain And you [112] You left me so confused [Allure] Now I'm all cried out Now I'm all cried out Over you [112] so sorry baby, please forgive me please forgive me Current Mood: confused

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July 12th, 2005

03:27 am - hmmmm.... atay sakit ako pus-on... daghan tawag... Current Mood: bitchy

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May 12th, 2005

04:50 am You Are A Realistic Romantic You are more romantic than 60% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line! Are You Romantic or Realistic?

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May 8th, 2005

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April 22nd, 2005

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March 5th, 2005

04:19 pm - falling in love It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails. You can analyze this mystery and look for the reasons and courses, but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more then the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalties that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gist that cannot be questioned in its ways. Sometimes, hopefully, at least once in your life, the gift of love will come to you in full bloom, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressable beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on. When it happens, some people often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on. They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that made the other person no longer love them, or try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love would grow. You need to know this about love and accept it. You need to treat what it brings with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart. If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different. If you fall in love with another, and he/she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to asses blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time. Remember that you do not choose to love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it feels you to oveflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generate love and instead becomes someone who seeks love. They forgot that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away. Remember this and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason, for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again. Author Unknown Current Mood: amused

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February 27th, 2005

10:04 am - 2 days more and counting... am fucking tired... can't wait to hop on the first plane to cebu... which reminds me, i need to pick up my ticket. hahai... my back hurts, ive been sitting since 9pm. and i need to be back by 9pm tonight. then im home free!!! i'll be going home and everything there is FREE!!! nyahahahahahhahhah!!!!! Current Mood: bouncy

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February 24th, 2005

11:32 pm - losing the faith -==Losing The Faith==- Its over. Finally, I can breathe. I can have a life again, something apart from always trying to be there for you. I can stop trying to understand, trying to make you see that we can work through this, that our love is worth fighting for. All the uncertainty, all the confusion, all the pain of not knowing where I went wrong, is finally over. D*mn you for putting me through all that. D*mn you for taking my belief in love, my belief in forever, my belief in you, and handing them back to me broken, saying you cant deal with them anymore. You will never know how much you hurt me by just giving up, you will never know how much you scared me from loving as much as I loved you ever again. I did not deserve to be hurt that way. And you didnt deserve my trust. So much wasted emotion. I had so much more tenderness to give, I could have stayed with you longer, but you didnt think it would be worth our while. I know you still love me, as I know that you were too d*mned scared to be vulnerable. And I was stupid enough to hope I can help you conquer that fear, or live with it, so that you can take the risk of letting me into your heart. Not anymore. You would rather hurt me than let down your guard. I loved you. Honestly, bravely, intensely I loved you. But it wasnt enough. I hate the fact that we could have saved us, but we didnt. We simply gave up something rare, something that doesnt come along everyday. I hate the emptiness. I hate the regrets. But the worst thing about all this is the simple, stupid, pathetic truth that I miss you. I miss you. I knew losing you would be painful, but pain, I can deal with. I can cope with the sharp, intense rush of emotion that cuts like a knife, but is relieved somehow by tears and is dulled by the passage of time. What I didnt expect was the sadness the steady, lingering hurt that comes with the realization that you will never again look at me as if Im precious, special, and infinitely cherished, you will never again call me beh with the tender amazement that I really am yours. Its the constant heaviness that haunts me and makes me wonder if Ill ever be whole again without you, or if Ill always mourn the part of me that died with our love. I miss you. And Im to be totally honest with myself, Ill have to admit that Id do anything, give everything even go through all the confusion again, just to find a way for you to keep believing in us. But theres no chance of that. Some goodbyes are final. I have a feeling this one is. P.S. Hay.. Ope all yah guys and gals out ryt thurr enjoyed reading this article.. Thanks for your time.. For My bebeh.. I hope you'll find the happiness and the peace of mind you have been searching for a while.. Thank you for all the good times and not so good times we had. I have no regrets loving you.. I've learned a lot from u. I just want to see you happy, even if its with someone else.. I hope she'll love you more than I do.. You take good care of yourself...Im still here for you, to be your friend.. For Myself: Hmm.. ano ba masasabi ko? Eto lng lague ko iniisip e.. Para sa inyo din tong lahat.. When we get hurt, it is one way God is telling us that not all dats painful is bad or wrong. We get hurt so we'd never hurt others the way we were hurt. Now, I can move on.. I know there's a reason behind all this.. Current Mood: drained Current Music: my immortal by evanessence

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February 23rd, 2005

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February 22nd, 2005

09:01 pm - get to know the one you worship i am numb... i prowl the endless darkness of my life in search of something even i do not know. all i have are vague memories of a past that once was... of a time when you can still call me human... i am human no more, you may wound me but you cannot hurt me. i just give water to the dead and then adapt. that sepaprates me from humanity. it is just an exorcise of futility for you to even contemplate it. just shut up and follow my lead.... Current Mood: bitchy

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February 19th, 2005

09:39 pm You are a moon shadow. With the moon as your source you are a being of great mystery. Constantly drifting, you descend into darkness to conceal your brokenness. You have come to believe that you are the only one you can rely upon for constancy and safety that you need. But those who know how to see you find enchanting beauty in your wistfulness and fragility. It is to them that you should flee, for their arms are an open haven where your true light can finally thrive..(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create) What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics) brought to you by Quizilla

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February 17th, 2005

10:48 pm - something i ripped off some stranger's journal THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. kim 2. bitch 3. nadhia THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. nadhia 2. priestess 3. kimmi THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. i'm smart (guffaws) 2. Sense of humour 3. i'm kinky THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. i'm getting fat again!!!!! *sobs* 2. tendency to procrastinate 3. hopeless romantic THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. cebuana 2. ilongga 3. rebelde THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. COCKroaches 2. not being able to serve the people 3. loving somebody who doesn't deserve my love THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS (aside from food/drink/air/etc): 1. DEO 2. Marlboro REDs (has to be reds and nothing else! uhuh!) 3. food THREE FAVORITE ARTICLES OF CLOTHING: 1. lingeries 2. maong pants 3. and my blue and black guerilla wear jacket THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS AT THE MOMENT: 1. eagis 2. america 3. lionel richie THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: 1. don't wanna be ur friend 2. dream of me ? 3. rev songs THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS: 1. Learn to speak German 2. visit my family with pepper and stay for more than a week 3. buy a pug THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given): 1. openness 2. Sharing thoughts and experiences/ honesty 3. faithfulness TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE 1. i'm still inlove with an ex. 2. i wanna leave the city and go back to the mountains and be with the MASA and my comrades. 3. i'm pregnant. THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. beautiful eyes 2. Full lips 3. confidence THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: 1. save money 2. learn to manage my time 3. get over my ex THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. masturbate 2. listening to cds 3. Reading THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. sleep 2. go home to cebu 3. cuddle up with pepper THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. Gypsy 2. Tramp 3. NPA Amazona THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. highlands of the philippines 2. communist korea 3. Africa THREE KID'S NAMES: 1. camallian ciranoushe 2. alexzies kimberly 3. viearrah khymme THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. Graduate from college 2. Travel 3. go sky-diving THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY (but only if you want to) (and most already have anyway): 1. jubers 2. daw yansuh 3. You Current Mood: bored

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February 11th, 2005

06:09 am question: if an ex introduces you to someone new who will eventually become your current. then it just means that they have forfeited all rights they may (or may think they have) right? but what if they start going crazy, like biglang nagtampo, or worse binreak ung gf nya, who happens to be the ex of your current just to get back at you. how would you react???? and to top it all, another ex, one that took a lot to get over with ay biglang nagparamdam. maloloka ka kaya? do provide comments on this guys... i need HELP!!!! what is the number for customer support??? fuck it. i want to go back to cebu... Current Mood: bitchy

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January 17th, 2005

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January 16th, 2005

12:29 pm - new year... new beginnings..... happy new year!!!!!!!!!! i know its kinda late for that... but what can i do? ive been sooooo damned bz with work lately... i have been swamped with calls since xmas time... *sigh* but it sure feels sooo damned good to be able to write again. a lot of things have happened since i last wrote on my old account... can't recount them anymore because i can't recall... hehehehehhehe... i have caught myself grinning like a cheshire cat quite a lot lately, i guess this is what they call love huh? (stares off to a distant spot on the far wall of the office) *sigh*. oh, before i go into catatonic mode, let me just give you guys a brief overview of the reason... i'm moving in with my beau!!!!! (*jumps around with glee*) lolz!!!! d nga, we're just waiting for the go ahead from her mom (a.k.a si "nanay"). but ew have already made up our minds to cohabitate with the next two months. nagahahnap na nga kami ng mga furnitures and fixtures that we like to put in the living room. you might think it funny, (i even think it so...) but i feel so all growed up as the rugrats are so fond of saying. heheheheheh. i miss my friends back home so much. and i really wish that they're here so that they'd grace my new "home" with their presence and (presents). hehehehehhehehehehe. hai jubers, i want u to meet my beau pra maging friends din kau. hehehehehhe. mura ko'g buang karon mga panahona. i feel as if i'd finally found my soul mate. the only thing lacking is for me to get pregnant. hehehehhehe. Current Mood: loved

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